"I miss you Amma" ... Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.

There are no goodbyes for us ...

Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart ...

... Mahatma Gandhi

"I miss you Amma" ... The New Year always starts with a happy note and this year was no different; however as the time rolled by an evening call turned my world topsy- turvey ... dear Amma had breathed her last breath and passed off peacefully for her heavenly abode ... may her divine soul attain sadgathi

** Navigating through my pain for a month now after losing dear Amma, I am still unable to pen a few thoughts on all that she meant to me. The hardest part is accepting that Amma's gone, and with her, the familiar comforts of her presence. No more phone calls, no more advice, no more laughter at my silly jokes, no more a shoulder to cry on, all gone with only beautiful memories to hold on to. When dear Aanu had passed, we had Amma to look upon, but now with both of them gone, there is a void that cannot be filled.

** My heartaches wishing she could have stayed on a little longer, but my mind knows that is not how it works. As life's final chapter unfolds, loved ones move on, and we have to let go with a heavy heart, even when it feels impossible. It’s been a month now and the hollow feeling still continues with each passing day, the sound of her voice will not ring in my ears now, nor will there be any warmth of her touch, that smile of happiness and above all the sense of belonging in her presence is all lost forever. 

** Amid the profound grief on realization that the central part of my world is gone there is also a sense of relief that there is no more physical suffering or pain that was so difficult to see and my heart will always remain grateful to Sri. Hari for the peaceful end she had and I pray to him to keep both my Aanu- Amma in peace and united in their heavenly abode. Both of you are the best blessings in my life, your memory, love and guidance will be treasured in my heart forever ... Love you Aanu- Amma ...